I am just the worst. I have been a sorry excuse for a blogger these days (months).
Let’s get the excuses out of the way. I was tied up for a while with an opportunity that eventually didn’t pan out a few weeks ago, and recently I’ve been both busy and sick. And a bit uninspired.
I think my biggest problem with coming up with post topics is that I’m at a bit of a plateau when it comes to exercise. Actually, scratch that. I feel like I’m in “maintenance” phase with exercise. I’m doing much more than the average bear, and it’s paying off, slowly but surely. I try to keep passionate about it, and for the most part, I do. I’m not sure that much will change until I’m in a position to try something new (which I’m totally up for).
Food, on the other hand, is something I should probably pay some attention to, according to every fitness expert, ever. UGH UGH UGH
Let’s just say that food and I are not on good terms. I blamed food for my weight for so many years. I beat myself up over every little f*cking thing I ate for so many years. And eventually, the stress-induced Godzilla reflux of my college years made food my very tangible enemy. I was/am just SO over it. Do we really have to eat?
I’m already overwhelmed. Just thinking about my twisted-up relationship with food overwhelms me. The fact that my diet is not that bad makes it even worse. I start having Vietnam-like flashbacks to years and years of failed fad diets where my inevitable weight re-gain made me feel like shit about myself and the food I have to consume to live.
So, I think I’ve found an app for that!
Last week, I was sitting at my desk seriously considering designing a printable that tracks only food group consumption and nothing more. Luckily, the smarter part of my brain decided I should shop the Apple app store, and look what I found:
And what have I learned? I don’t eat fruit. Like, ever. Let’s not get too much into why I don’t (picky about the preparation, too lazy to prepare it myself, it’s so expensive pre-prepared). It’s funny how once you’ve identified patterns, they look so silly.
So my new short-term, totally doable goal? Eat one serving of fruit a day. This I can do. :)
Oh yeah, and: write some posts, sometimes. Dummy.