I suppose I should follow up my last post with something a little less overwrought and a little more positive.
After starting a weekly to-do list, I realized that there are a few areas of my life that have improved from my recent change of job/location. And they’re significant – I just wasn’t choosing to focus on them!
1. There is no cafeteria in the next building, which means I’m:
a) saving money – I was going to my old one almost every day, even if it was just for a drink.
b) saving calories – I’m forced to bring my lunch to work or leave to get something which, honestly, I just don’t have the time for. It’s been especially good for keeping me from drinking Dr. Pepper during the week. The only moment of temptation is at the grocery store when I choose between a 12-pack of diet or regular sodas.
2. There’s some fast food between work and home, and near home, but not much, and nothing I really care for. If there were a convenient Whataburger or Taco Casa, I’d be in trouble, but there’s not. This means I’m:
a) making dinner for myself at home more often, give in to cravings less – it was never a real problem for me, but it’s just another example of something that has improved.
b) saving money.
3. The money I’m saving will be able to go toward more important things, like voice lessons and new clothes. Forced savings.
4. I feel so fulfilled by what I’m doing at work, I don’t even care that I’m working longer, constantly-busy hours. Do I feel a bit frazzled sometimes? Yeah, but the trade-off is absolutely worth it. At my old position, as much as I loved my coworkers, it would’ve been too much.
5. This is a big one – I’m actually excited to get home and accomplish all of the things I “have” to do. The angst from the last post was purely about finding time, not finding motivation. I look forward to practicing new music, biking on my gorgeous neighborhood path, and learning a new language. Ok, I’m not always thrilled about cooking dinner, but that’s only because it sucks to cook for one person, and usually at that point in the day, I’m ready to rest for the evening. So yes, it’ll take discipline to carve out 3-4 hours a night for my to-do list, but that list makes me so happy, it’s worth it.